Never Say Never

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First of all, thanks everyone for the kind comments! I'm starting to feel like I "need" blogging a little more than I have in the last couple of years. I started it as a support system when I was training for my first Ironman. I took a lot of comfort in reading the blogs of other athletes who had finished or were training for Ironman - seeing how their training was progressing, reading the same insecurities I was feeling, and having the general feeling of camaraderie. Over the past couple of years, this blog has sort of just been a place to write about my races and general training, but I haven't relied on it as much as when I first started blogging. Now I've come full circle and am entering into a whole knew unknown territory, and it's so comforting to see so many women out there who have been through this whole process (some multiple times...) or who are preggo along with me now. Just like in Ironman training, I'm reading others' blogs knowing that my "training plan" may differ from the women around me, but the finish line looks the same!

I didn't do much of anything last week outside of work, including workouts. I really haven't been sleeping well, and it caught up with me big time. I think a huge part of it was anxiety. I feel like my to-do list for work and life right now is huge, and there are a lot of nights when my mind just races. One of my coworkers (who is due 6 days before me) told me last week told me she's all ready for her baby to come - room is set up, clothes are ready, name is picked out. All I could think of was, HOLY CRAP ALL I'VE ACCOMPLISHED IS BUYING A BOB STROLLER! Steve's in the process of painting our guest room and we're hoping to get registered and on track this weekend, but there's a lot of loose ends to take care of. I know that it will all come together, and from what I hear, this usually ends up as a "hurry up and wait" kind if situation, but the nesting brain of a preggo lady must be appeased.

On the bright side, I had another doctor's appointment yesterday. Everything's checking out great. Yes, I have gained over 20 pounds in just over 27 weeks, but they actually haven't even brought that up. Have I mentioned that I like my doctor? I did ask her again about running, just to make sure she's still cool with it. Since I'm growing normally and all of my exams look good, she said to just keep using common sense - no overexerting myself. I should keep taking it easy, be aware of any abnormal cramping, and keep my breathing in check (which thankfully still hasn't been much of an issue).

Aside from feeling like a lazy pile of poo, which doesn't seem to be good for my physical or mental health, we've been pretty busy around here, and I have been finding myself in a lot of situations I never thought I'd be in - I am these are the first of many times this will happen. Thus, I bring you the quick and dirty of proving myself wrong lately...

NSN #1: We will never buy an SUV: I thought it for years. I've always seen them as unsafe, unnecessary gas guzzling vehicles. As Steve's car has been heading south over the last couple of years, we started exploring all of our options and have been eyeing the Chevy Equinox. When the transmission started making threats 3 weeks ago in addition to the car leaking coolant like a sieve and the dash lights not working at night (which I'm pretty sure is not legal...), we decided to call it quits. We really don't want to be dealing with an emergency dead car in a couple of months with a baby on the way. It's a pretty small vehicle that will be versatile enough for an active family but actually gets better gas mileage than my small car. We've already put a hitch on it for our bike rack. In an effort to merge family and multisport, it seemed like the way to go. Plus, it's gotten great safety ratings. It resulted in a couple of extra sleepless nights, but we like it so far.

NSN #2: I'll never need a bra that big: My love for the Enell sports bra is no secret. I've professed it here many times. Right after becoming pregnant, I realized that one of my first purchases was going to have to be a new sports bra. The Enell is VERY supportive, but it's not very forgiving. If you're busting out of it, you simply can't breathe. I normally wear their size 0. I went to the one store in the Twin Cities that carries the brand with the intent to buy a size 1 and possibly a size 2, too. It's funny how "you'll grow into it" suddenly becomes OK again when you're pregnant. I haven't let someone use that phrase on me since about 5th grade. When I tried the 1 last October, though, it seemed SO much bigger that I only bought that one thinking the 2 would be a very long way off. A few weeks ago, I noticed that the 1 was causing a lot of chafing and seemed like it was getting on the tight side, so I went on the emergency hunt for a 2. Thank God for Ebay. I can't afford these things full price anymore. When I switched to the 2 a few weeks ago, I realized that I'd waited WAY too long and that a 3 may not be far off. Lord have mercy. Thankfully their sizing goes up to an 8, but if I get to a 50DDD in this process, somebody'd better shoot me. I still owe you all a post about the rest of my exercise clothes, but the sports bra is something you simply can't skimp on.

NSN #3: I'm not one to back out of a race: I had grand plans to run the half marathon this weekend. I've still been doing long runs and feeling good, but it seems that 10-11 miles is about my max before I start to feel a little tired. I signed up knowing a lot could change, but I didn't realize that my pace would keep slowing so much. They changed the location of the course and set a 3 hour time limit. Granted, some of my runs have been on really terrible slushy footing, but my pace is often 13+ minutes per mile. That doesn't leave me any cushion if I just wanted to walk the last 2-3 miles (or to account for the likely 4+ bathroom breaks I'd need), and I don't trust myself not to push it if it means a DNF. A DFL I could handle, but not a DNF. When they changed the course, they offered a free downgrade to the 7K so I took it. The 7K has a 2 hour time limit. Go figure. I'm still going to keep up my long runs for as long as I can, but I don't want to be pressured into keeping a certain time. By the way - in addition to the amazing number of potty stops you need during a long run, it's crazy how much food you need. I've been good about drinking water on my runs, but over 10 miles used to be my cutoff for when I'd consider taking a gel, and I rarely need one before 13. With Baby on board, I consistently need 300-400 calories during a 10 mile run.

NSN #4: I'm going to lose all of my running partners as my "pregnancy pace" just keeps getting slower: My friend Haley has been great and is still joining me for some of my longer runs. It's amazing how fast they go by when you have somebody to talk to! A couple of weeks ago, Abigailius contacted me. She's a fellow blogger athlete who is also preggo and due 6 days before me. We live just a few miles from each other. It's one of those crazy intertwined life stories where when you start making the connections, it's a little freaky. We went to the same undergrad, we have done many of the same races, I peripherally knew her husband years ago, and Steve taught her sister. Our first run was so fun that we have our second running date tonight!

NSN #5: This winter is never going to be over: We're supposed to hit 50+ degrees twice this week. They're predicting that all of our snow could be gone within a week. I'm not holding my breath that we're truly out of the woods, but it feels so good to think we might be getting close!

NSN #6: I'll never find maternity clothes that fit: I have been looking for weeks. Fortunately, I found a couple pairs of pants that have been working great, but all of the maternity shirts out there look and feel like tents. Plus, it's highway robbery how much they charge for those unflattering chunks of fabric. I have been starting to freak out as my bump is getting increasingly larger and I'm down to the same 5 pre-pregnancy shirts that have been compassionate enough to grow with me. I looked at a bunch more places yesterday and came up with squat. We really can't afford for me to blow an entire paycheck on 3 shirts. Last night on my way home from the dentist, I stopped by my second Herberger's of the day and had success!!! I didn't actually find a good maternity shirt, but I found SEVEN regular shirts in sizes and styles that will fit me for at least a couple more months. Those seven shirts were each 85% off, and I scored all of them for $52. That puts yesterday's extensive shopping excursion at 1 pair of pants, 2 camis, and 7 shirts for $100. I was so relieved when I got home that I was downright giddy!

On my Trainer a week ago - I can't fit into Aero, but I can still hang out with Coach Troy!



I am so amazed (and inspired) that you are still running that far! I was so excited to run over 4 miles last week.

I'm 23 weeks, so a month behind you, and all we have is a couple outfits. I freaked out that the baby will end up sleeping in a laundry basket - clothed, at least, but still in a basket.


sounds like everything is going swimmingly! loving the update, and you look fabulous. btw - why is enell SOOO expensive?!!


I love reading your blog! I never got a moment to comment on your last post, but I'll say now that I have TOTALLY been there! I can't count how many times I randomly burst into tears thinking I'd never get my old body back or that I would be the exception to the rule that you can come back from pregnancy faster.
I'm freaking out less this time around, but I'm still not feeling "cute."

You, on the other hand, look amazing! I am definitely not at 10-11 miles anymore. More like...3. On a good day. :(

Oh, and did you know Enell makes a nursing sports bra? It's at :) Defintely worth splurging on -- there are few things harder than coming back from a workout and immediately trying to nurse a fussy baby while wearing a sports bra!


24 years ago and pregnant with my daughter I was still racing and working out.
No one else was working out or much less racing while pregnant-I felt like a freak (it was 1986) and so I quit because I was getting too much attention. And I thought I was doing something "wrong".
You are lucky to have the internet and a tuned-in Dr.
to keep you going!


Love the updates Sarah! :) Keep them coming. You look fabulous and are such an inspiration to those of us who are athletes and not yet moms or moms-to-be!


Well, even if you still need to buy a lot of stuff, you are now one 36-ct box of electrical outlet covers closer to being prepared for baby :)

Jennifer P

Moving comfort is great too. I have the Juno bra and it worked well during and after. The awesome thing is that it has Velcro straps that you can adjust. Good for feedings, adjusting sizes during pregnancy and after. I was an E during and am down to a C and it still works great.

And I have put my sleeping baby in a laundry basket.


Love to see that you're still out and about!

And you're going to have more NSNs coming up. Trust me! It was quite shocking to see how fast we acquiesced to the needs of the child.


Love reading your udpates Pharmie! I'm due about a month before you and every time I read your blog I think "she knows exactly what I've been feeling!"

Just for your comfort, we just registered 2 weeks ago and have done absolutely nothing else to prepare yet...don't worry, it will all get done:)


It's funny...even though I knew not to get worked up about the weight gain -- I was supposed to gain weight, it was good for the baby, etc. -- it was difficult when my scrawny, lovely, distance-running husband upped his training and started dropping the pounds. What happened to sympathy weight gain? Instead, 5'1" me and 5'10" him ended up a mere 2 pounds away from each other. What a jerk! Now that our little guy's here, though, things are getting back to normal. :)


From a mom of 4 wonderful, amazing kids, you really don't need much. diapers (or not even really necessary of you EC - I did this with the last 2 had had the last one out of diapers at 4 WEEKS of age), access to your breasts and your bed. honestly, kids are very forgiving. I am not sure I don't think we even had clothes for the first one - they spend so much time that 1st week or so sleeping that you can t-shirt and diaper and wrap them in a blanket and they're good. We never had a nursery for any of the kids, never a crib or bottles either and cloth diapering made it really pretty cheap. I also got all their clothes (and still do) at thriftstores. Amazing the NEW stuff you'll find there as kids grow FAST when they're new. :)

Take your sleep now. Seriously. Guard it jealously. :)


Congrats on finding clothes that work! Pregnancy can be the most frustrating time for staying dressed!


I totally understand what you meant about "needing" blogging as you navigate your brave new world! I felt exactly the same when I was preggo, and it was so comforting to read about other women's experiences, if nothing else, to know that what I was going through was "normal".

Even now that I'm no longer preggo, I'm really enjoying reading blogs of women who have kids just a bit older than mine. That way when my Kid does something I can say, "Insert-blogger-name-here went through this with her kid, and ___ worked for her." My husband keeps asking me how I know to do this stuff - it is my secret mommy-network of bloggers! The other cool thing is that you are right - we don't all make the same choices or take the same path, but with bloggers, there is no emotional baggage if you don't take their "advice".

20# in 27 weeks sounds just about perfect. Don't stress about it! (Or try not to.)

You are right, don't skimp on the sports bra. And don't feel guilty, either. Your "girls" will stay big for quite some time after baby, especially if you breastfeed, so consider your sports bras a long-term investment!


I'm not sure I've ever commented before, but I am really enjoying your posts! I recently found out I'm pregnant too so the information is quite timely. :) I'm eight weeks today. (We haven't told anyone except our families yet and out of paranoia I'm commenting anonymously. You don't know me.)

I was a 10-11 minute miler to begin with, and I'm already up to 13 minute miles thanks to the warm climate I live in. Ugh. I feel SO slow.

In any case, I was wondering if you could post something about workout wear? (I know you posted about sports bras, but have you found that you had to find new shirts and shorts, or have you been able to keep wearing your old stuff? Any other advice on apparel for the pregnant runner? I don't have to worry about it quite yet since I'm not showing, but I'm afraid I'm not going to fit into any of my workout gear as I get farther along.


Okay, can I just tell you how totally BADASS you are?!?! First, I love this post. Second, I just read Steve's post with all the pics from your race. You are seriously tearing it up and looking amazing doing it. It's super cool how active and fit you continue to be throughout your pregnancy!

Rural Girl

I laughed when you wrote that you get tired after about 10-11 miles of running! I should hope so! You're growing a baby. How cool is that!?